Poetry
By Eurdis Nail Greer
X-mas
I think I'm altogether, then again--
I lose my mind
Amid the strains of music
That I hear at Christmastime
There's "Peace on Earth - Good Will to Men"
I'm filled with joy and love
As I remember God who sent His Son from up above.
And then along comes Santa Claus
Rewards upon his back
Knowing that I wasn't good - yet opening up his pack
And then they will play "Silent Night"
Which brings tears to my eyes
But soon the sound of jingling bells
Will drive that from my mind.
I want to bow my head in prayer and sing
"Oh Holy Night"
But when I close my eyes there's dancing sugar
plums in sight.
I think we need to start anew and re-arrange
our lives
And pack up all this "Santa Claus with all its
little lies"
I think it's time we dared, don't you, to take a
firmer stand
A stand for truth and honor, time to be a better
man.
I think the young want us to see
What they already know
They need parents to grow up
They grew up long ago.
Omniscience
I went to Your house today;
It was Mother's Day.
I sat on a pew with my aged mother
and my not-so-aged grandson.
My daughter sat beside me;
Her mind intent on the speaker,
Her eyes intent on her son, not that he noticed.
I'll confess, I didn't hear much that was said,
But I think you would approve of what my spirit felt.
I don't remember the exact words of the prayer,
But I remember a wide-eyed look of innocence
and the feel of a little hand slipping into mine.
It was a day I'll never forget.
You knew it would be, didn't You?
Dear Lord,
There's no use trying to figure out why that snake bit my grandson. Already I've heard a thousand reasons...each one the authority on it. Those who couldn't think of a reason, put it on You.
I just want to thank you for getting him well, for keeping him from being too sick. We could tell it was a bad one from the marks on his arms and all that swelling. He said to thank you for him, too. Right now, he thinks he may never swim in Strong River again. At first, his mama wanted to drain it dry and kill every snake there, but that's because she was scared and worried. She knows now there was a reason.
There's always a reason.
I don't know what it was.
I just know it tendered my heart towards him a little more.
It tendered my heart towards You, too.
Dear Lord
I know how Mary must have felt when she held her baby in her arms for the first time, knowing one day she would have to give him up to the world.
Even knowledge of a divine purpose didn't stop her heartache, nor Yours.
Now the same old world that destroyed her child is trying to destroy mine.
If there's a special lesson to be learned from all this pain, Lord, please help me hurry up and learn it.
Lord… are you up yet?
I tried to call several times last night, but your line was busy. You must have been talking to that new mother down the street... the one with all those kids... and I certainly didn't want to interrupt. Remember when mine were growing up and I'd call all the time... and about the silliest things, too. Seems all I did was worry about those youngsters of mine.
I felt everything they did wrong was somehow my fault. Maybe if I had given them time to learn on their own and not been so quick to judge; but I was afraid to let up, Lord, and I thought it all depended on me.
I know you were trying to tell me better, just like I was trying to tell them.
Well, that's why I called, Lord, to thank you again... and if there's anything You need me to do... Oh... that new mother down the street...
Why, of course I will! Anyway, one of the little ones reminds me of my youngest... the one whose goldfish died after she put lotion on its eyes and we stayed up all night crying...
I told You about that...remember?
Dear Lord,
When she was just a baby
And got pinched fingers and hurt,
I hurt.
When she got older
And experienced hurt feelings,
I hurt.
Then when she grew up
And out of my arms and into the world,
And hurt for all the things she couldn't have;
I hurt because I had to refuse her.
Even when she chose to go against my wishes
And eventually got hurt,
I hurt all the more.
At times I feel myself growing cold and distant,
Immune to hurt.
Don't let me do this, Lord,
For as long as I hurt,
I care.
Lord…
I feel like such a failure with my children.
They look to me for guidance
and find a floundering, insecure child instead.
Sometimes I feel they're the adult
and I the child.
Help me to remember that all knowledge comes from you,
that parents are but representatives of your wisdom and love,
that we are all your children
in different stages of learning and growth.
Remind me that I am to be
what I want them to become...
And thank you for listening to me with such patience,
as I should be showing mine.
Home by Suppertime
If you're not here by suppertime,
I guess I'll stop and take the time
To write and tell you what I want to say-
Of all the times I'm missing you,
Wondering if you miss me too,
And little things I do from day to day.
Now supper's cooking on the stove
And I don't want it getting cold
Before I see your car pull in that drive.
I washed the dishes, mopped the floor,
Combed my unkempt hair once more,
And thought of things I'd say when you arrived;
Like:
"How are things today with you?
That new dress looks good on you...
Have you always worn your hair that way?"
While all the time it makes me glad
To watch your eyes light up like that;
It's hard to hear a single thing you say.
Just being with you says it all,
And it's okay if you don't call.
Since writing letters takes a lot of time,
I will be the one tonight
To write to say things are all right
If you are still not here by suppertime.
I wish that you had been there then
And seen that mama's great big grin
And, with her apron, wipe tears from her eyes
When from behind the curtain she
Saw kids and dogs and finally me
Walk in that door at home at suppertime.
My Daughter, My Friend
Letters hidden in a trunk
Their oft' read pages worn,
Speak impatiently of life,
Hint of sadness, love forlorn.
They hunger yet for yesteryear's
Carefree times
And thrills-
Prom nights, dates, and whispered dreams.
Treasured moments, treasured still.
In time, they held
A lock of hair, a tooth,
A program from a play.
Later, scented lavender,
Dried petals from a bride's bouquet.
Age, then wisdom, formed a bond
Enriched by letters through the years.
Tearstained pages from a daughter
Stained once more by Mother's tears.
Last Born
When she came home for a visit
and we embraced,
A part of me wanted to hold my last-born
in my arms,
stroke her hair,
and sing lullabyes to her like when she was a child.
And when on into the night, she endlessly chattered-
A part of me withdrew to observe
my grownup daughter in her new habitat-
with new lifestyles, new friends-
So much a part of her, so distant from me.
And when we said goodbye,
My heart cried;
And later on, in solitude,
my eyes formed a duet with my heart,
and the part of me that longed to hold her,
let her go...
Where is she?
Where is the infant
who made parents out of two children,
and gave new meaning to the word love,
who dressed up in mama's skirts and papa's shoes,
who practiced music for obedience sake
and always came home on time?
Where is the teen who scraped the bike
and then the car,
who hated braces but never complained-
at least not about braces-
who went to church, and complained
about double standards and unfairness of life?
There she is—in her wedding gown—trying not to cry
as she straightens Papa's tie
and wipes tears from Mama's eyes.
Just for Me
I brought molasses
from the shed,
checked for eggs
just like she said;
then pushed my chair to Mama's knee,
while she made teacakes
just
for
me.
Mother of Three
A mother I am, a mother of three.
A mother of sons I was not meant to be.
I prayed for a son "for my husband," I said.
"I'll take any kind-even hair that is red,
or no hair at all will be all right with me."
But a mother of sons I was not meant to be.
I made frilly dresses for three little girls,
Made Easter bonnets to cover their curls,
And gave up my dreams for a son finally.
A mother of sons I was not meant to be.
I made wedding dresses for three grown-up girls,
Made satin bonnets to hold wedding veils.
God answers prayers in his own way, you see,
And soon gave me grandsons, not one, but three!
A mother of sons was not meant for me.
A mother of grandsons, He meant me to be.